Jaded
My body ached.
Everything hurt. I was stood in the school parking lot and looked up. It was
getting dark, maybe around five or six o’clock. I limped home and thought about
how useless my life was. Nothing good ever happejned to me. Even if something
good did happen, it would just slip between my hands. I continued my walk home
thinking about this until I reached the door of my house. I reached for the keys
in my purse and opened the door. As the door swung, my little sister
materialized and glared at me. I stared back.
“You got beat up again didn’t
you Jade?” She asked.
“Shut up Vicky! Mind your
own business,” I retaliated.
“When it concerns my
big sister, everything is my business. Now answer me. You got beat up again
didn’t you?” She asked again.
“Leave me alone. That doesn’t
concern you,” I persisted. I entered the house and walked up to my room. She followed,
but I closed my bedroom door. This didn’t stop her. We had a conversation with
the door between us.
“This is getting out of
hand Jade,” Vicky said. “You have to tell Mom and Dad before things get worse. Bullying
isn’t a small issue. If you keep getting beat up, I don’t know how you’ll
survive the rest of your junior year.”
Vicky had a point. She
always had a point. She was thirteen and I was seventeen, but she always made
more sense than me. She was right though. I couldn’t go through my third year
of highschool getting beat up all the time. I really wanted to tell my parents,
but I lacked the courage. I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. Even I didn’t
know why I couldn’t tell them, but I just couldn’t. I had always been shy and
timid for as long as I could remember.
“I’ll survive somehow,”
I lied. “I just will.”
How I was going to
survive? Only God knows. I changed into my house clothes and tried to do my homework,
but I couldn’t concentrate. What Vicky said was still bugging me. I listened to
some music while lying on my bed to clear my thoughts, and eventually fell
asleep thinking about my problems.
I dreamt about how my
bullying started and how it was a huge misunderstanding. This wasn’t a new dream. I’d been having this
same dream for weeks now, and no matter how hard I tried to avoid it, the
result was still the same.
In
the dream, I was in my Social Studies class. The teacher assigned a project to
the class and put us into groups. I was in a group with Jason Smith and two
other girls. Jason was pretty much the most popular guy in school and the two
other girls followed him wherever he went. As the different groups discussed
the project, my group decided to meet at Jason’s house that Saturday and finish
it there. I was a bit excited because I rarely went to other people’s houses
and people rarely came to mine.
Saturday
came and I got ready to leave for Jason’s. I walked to his house, which wasn’t
far from mine, and met the two other girls in my group along the way. We greeted
each other and continued to Jason’s. When we arrived, they rang the doorbell
and Jason opened the door eagerly. He welcomed us and we went to his room.
My
group worked well together and we finished most of the project that afternoon.
We decided to meet again the next day to complete it. We then began to leave.
The two girls left quickly because they said they had a movie to catch. After
they had left, I realized that one of them left her bag on Jason’s desk. I
wanted to go after them, but Jason stopped me. He insisted that he would give
it to her, and that I stay longer. I took a seat on his neatly made bed while
he sat on his desk’s chair. As we sat there, he just stared at me like I was a
prize. He offered me a drink from the kitchen and I took a few sips. He asked
me questions as if interrogating me, but I didn’t mind. We got into a good conversation
because of his interrogation, and surprisingly, we had a lot in common. He
continued to stare at me as if he wanted something from me. Then he unexpectedly
told me how cute I looked the way I was sitting on his bed. He stood up from
the chair and took a seat on the bed with me with his eyes never diverting from
me. He moved closer to me until there was almost no distance from us. He leaned
towards my face and kissed me. It was sudden and I got a bit scared. I pushed
him away, but I felt weak and dizzy. Then I realized that I had drunk something.
Maybe he had put something in the drink to knock me out. I noticed too late
because I was already seeing stars. I passed out.
When
I regained consciousness from blacking out, I saw Jason still sitting on the
bed while I was lying on it. I looked at him sleepily then examined myself. I
was under his covers and felt a little cold. I removed the covers, but quickly
put them back on when I realized I was more than half-naked. I didn’t know what
had happened, but I was scared, confused, and still dizzy.
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